Ok, so I managed to vanish for much longer than I ever intended, for more reasons than I really want to get into at this time. A continuous lack of internet is mostly to blame along with a host of other problems that continue to morph as I struggle with life in general. I have been rather on and off with my artwork as well, trying to find an area to focus on and failing rather badly at that. That seems to be a running theme for my life on general come to think of it...
But that's not the point of this. I'm not sure there really is a point, except that I have really missed this site and wish it were more mobile friendly. Then I could keep up from my phone, but I'm hoping my new laptop will help with that! Only time will tell...
I've had several personal issues from my past demanding my attention in the past few months, which has been leading me to return more to writing along with the art, in hopes of finally healing from the events of my childhood. I've made much progress in the past 2 years thanks in part to a good friend of mine, and I'm currently in the process of trying to find a way to present some of what I've gone through and learned from it. Unfortunately I'm finding it difficult to separate the different components so that its not one huge jumble. Right now most of my ramblings are being posted to my blog leikasmirror.wordpress.com as a combination of creative writing pieces and straight talk, with the hopes that I can make sense out of it some day. It started off with the intent of posting daily (or close), but now its just ramblings typed from my phone and posted when the apps decide to cooperate. I'm hoping to do more with it once I get to the internet on a more regular basis, but that could still take a bit.
All I can say for sure right now is that I've got to do something with my life before it totally implodes on me. Maybe the fact that I just aged another year and I'm still stuck at the same dead-end job with my life falling apart around me is a sign. The problem is, which of the multiple possible paths is the one I should take? Its definitely time for some serious soul-searching...
***Random song lyrics***
"Raise those hands, this is our party
We came here to live life like nobody was watching"
*Can't hold us* by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis feat Ray Dalton
Devious Journal Entry
. Still, I'm hoping this (partial?) hiatus won't take more than a few more months to settle.See, being the low-income single mother that I am, I was using an open wireless connection for my internet. Unfortunately, the business moved in early July and took their 'net with them. Then I had a problem with my landlord, partially due to my falling behind on rent, which was a result of losing my design job and not finding a 2nd. This problem is ongoing to be honest. He tried to evict me OVER THE PHONE! So I stopped even trying to come up with rent and focused on trying to get out of there. Now the problem is that I can't get much assistance without a court-ordered eviction, which he flat out is refusing to file. I am currently 7 months behind and haven't heard from him in a month and a half. Then I find out that he's doing this to the neighbors across the hall as well, and they weren't even behind yet! Not to mention that the building itself won't pass the upcoming inspection, or the numerous safety hazards in my apartment alone. This is supposed to be a locked building but the crack-head neighbor leaves the back door open, and I've heard that there's homeless persons taking shelter down in the basement!
I want to get out of there, but the second long-running issue is with my cash sucking car. I've been working on repairs to this damned thing since the end of August, but I can't seem to get the repairs done fast enough. Then I've had a couple of shops totally miss the parts that were going bad which resulted in my left front strut shearing in two when I turned a corner. On the way to get it checked out somewhere else. Luckily I was barely doing over 5 MPH and managed to get mostly out of the lane before it stopped, and I had a friend following me so no extra damage done. The list so far has included both front struts and mounts, an axel, 1 inner tie-rod, and both outer. All on the front so far, but the back needs work too, though luckily not as much or as immediate. The last few immediate things will hopefully be done soon, then hopefully it'll hold til after the holidays.
To say I'm stressed right now is putting it mildly. But I'm coping and still being productive, keeping my goals in sight. I'll be uploading a couple of the pics I've done lately, as I don't want to overload anyone. I've continued working on the 'DreamScapes' concept, trying some different things and exploring some new ideas, so I'll see how that works out.
I've gone and re-done my CafePress shop, adding some of my new work and some reorganization. Here is the new link for any who may be interested in checking it out: NightSidesArt
I'm really hoping things start smoothing out soon, as I have started working on several parts of the solution, so wish me luck!
~Laters!
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